Dear Srila Prabhupada,
Please accept my humble obeisance. All glories to your Divine Grace.
On this the glorious anniversary of your appearance day I am meditating on why I surrendered my life to you and continue to do so after more than thirty-five years.
Back then I was a youth in search of the absolute truth and love of God, nothing else would do. After studying so many paths I was not satisfied and could not understand why. Somehow by Lord Krsna’s grace I came in contact with you via the Bhagavada-gita As It Is. This was what I was looking for, the absolute truth spoken by God, Lord Krsna, Himself in a highly intelligent, philosophical, uncompromising and unsentimental way yet at the same time appealing not only to my intellect but to my heart. The intelligent way that you presented it, like a rigorous mathematician demonstrating a proof, with all pramanas to support every statement conquered my intelligence telling me it was safe to open my heart. This was religion on a solid foundation of philosophy and not sentimentalism or fanaticism. On that occasion I surrendered my life on to you.
Though I had some inkling of Your Divine Grace’s greatness I was and still am too immature to truly understand who you really are. But over the years my love and appreciation for you have grown and I strongly feel a very deep and personal relationship with you. I am especially attached to daily listening to the recordings of your conversations, morning walks and lectures. When I hear you speak I feel safe like an infant who is pacified by the sound of its mother’s voice. Your words cut through all the madness and confusion in the world around me. You teach by your personal example of real compassion and not being sentimental or compromising. You are Lord Krsna’s direct representative and you present the truth without any adulteration, this is real compassion. You are yourself following in the footsteps of your beloved Guru Maharaja, Srila Bhakti Siddhanta Sarasvati Thakura, who said:
If I were to desist from lecturing about the Absolute Truth due to fear that some listeners may be displeased, I would be deviating from the path of Vedic truth and accepting the path of untruth. I would become one who is inimical to the Vedas, an atheist, and would no longer possess faith in Bhagavan, the very embodiment of truth. He who compromises is finished.
(Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Vaibhava)